If it's not obvious enough, I am a total over-thinker when it comes to… well, everything. It's one of my many weaknesses that I still have yet to learn how to control. I thank God for blessing me with a husband who is patient enough to put up with it as I'm sure it is NOT fun at all. After my little fit towards the way yesterday turned out, I ended up waking up this morning still feeling pretty down. After my husband asked me a few times if I was okay, I finally let go of the stubbornness and told him how I was feeling undervalued as a wife and mom. Basically what happened last night was, we were doing a family devotional and when asked to name ways that our parents show us love, the first things that came to my kids' minds were, "you buy me stuff" and "you get mad at me". It hurt my feelings that they didn't say something that acknowledged all that I do for them as a mom. Well, my son did after I had already made some snarky comment about what they said initially. Being the over-thinker that I am I immediately told myself that he was only saying that because I said something. How childish, right? What was worse is that this revealed to me how much I have neglected to reflect a christ-like love in my role as a mom. Anyway, as me and my husband went back and forth discussing the reasons why I was feeling so upset, he helped me realize that the way I was thinking was so silly! He is so the opposite of me as far as NOT being an over-thinker. He is good at seeing things in black and white when I see them in rainbow scribbles. If that even makes any sense LOL. He really tries so hard to get me to see a less complicated perspective as my overthinking often causes me to believe things that are not even true. I allowed myself to get stuck in a mindset where my husband and kids didn't see my efforts and ways of showing them love. In turn, believing that lie took me even further into a stronghold as I started to tell myself I was failing as a wife, a mom, and a Christian! How ridiculous! Even if it were true and I was failing to play my roles right, it doesn't mean that I can't do better moving forward. The enemy wants us to take our shortcomings or mistakes and pick at them. He wants us to pry at our faults and failures to a point where that it's all we see so we start hating ourself. He wants us to believe we have failed so that we can't see how much we have actually overcome. He wants us to see so much of the lies that it blinds us from the truth. The truth is, sometimes we do fail, but failure doesn't have to be a bad thing. If we allow God's truth to prevail in our moments of failure, they can become the most powerful moments of learning and growing that we can have. So if you ever find yourself stuck in your thoughts and they lead you to feel like you're totally sucking at life, remember these verses of scripture:
2 Corinthians 10:5 casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ,
Micah 7:8 Do not rejoice over me, my enemy; When I fall, I will arise; When I sit in darkness, The Lord will be a light to me.
The enemy may taunt you for a moment, but the Lord God is faithful and mighty to lift us up and let his light shine upon us! So take every negative thought captive and submit them to the obedience of Christ. His power will help you overcome! Stay blessed and unhindered!