It's been one of those days where pregnancy has me feeling really drained. I took a long nap earlier and still feel so tired. So much so, that I did not feel like getting on the computer and writing tonight (Just being honest as always). Anyway, while I was battling with myself the Lord reminded me that I needed to have obedience.
Obedience; never been a word or topic that I am comfortable with as it usually means that I am required to do something I don't want to do. It has never been my strong suit and as soon as I became an adult I was sure no-one would ever tell me what to do again! Ha, if I only knew then what I know now…
I don't say it proudly but, for as long as I can remember, I've always been a stubborn and rebellious child. I'm sure my parents would attest to that. I remember this time when I was a teenager and I got grounded from using the phone. While my dad was at work one day, I used the phone any way. Well, he unexpectedly came home for a lunch break and caught me. He ended up unplugging all of the phones in the house and hiding them from me (this was before cell phones were a thing). The next day I searched high and low, and I found the phones! Again, I used them when I wasn't supposed to and again, he came home unexpectedly to catch me. By this time he was furious with me (can you blame him?), so he took the phones to work with him! That's how hard of a time I had with obedience growing up. I'm not even sure why, I just didn't listen well.
Now that I'm all grown up with kids of my own I am experiencing for myself how hard it is to be a parent dealing with disobedient children. Some days I handle it with ease, while other days… I seriously just can't with them! I feel disrespected as a mom when they don't listen to me. Dealing with my kids makes me feel so bad when I think about what I put my parents through. How much it must have hurt them and how disrespected they must have felt. Thank goodness I have grown out of that phase and all is well and forgiven with them. We are blessed with pretty great relationships and it is awesome to see how much I've grown up since my days of sneaking on the phone behind their backs.
I wish I could say the same about my obedience to God. Most days, I really struggle to consistently walk in it. A lot of the time the things that God requires of me take the kind of discipline and faith that are hard to maintain when life happens. Like when circumstances become stressful or for example today, when I’m so tired and all I want to do is rest. Even as I try to give him every excuse in the book to get out of doing what he calls me to he continues to tug at my heart and insist that I obey! So here I am, being obedient. I found strength as I remembered his 2017 promises for me and they gave me just the push I needed. I became full of excitement to write this post as I was reminded of how much all of you may depend on these lessons of encouragement to be your source of knowing the Lord's great love. So I hope that this post has done that for you today. As always he never fails to deliver his perfect promises at just the right time! Even in our disobedience, he is ever faithful! Love & blessings!