I couldn’t sleep to save my life last night so I was doing some research on how I can improve the progress of my blog. In doing that, I learned a few things that made me hop onto my website and take a closer look at the content that I had published. As I was reading my own blog posts I began to question if the content was reaching the mark for my target audience. I noticed that I tend to talk a lot about my shortcomings and faults or struggles that I have, and I wondered if maybe it turned people away. Was I being too transparent about my moments of weakness and taking away from testifying to all that Jesus has done in my life? Is my faith and beliefs obvious enough in my content that it makes people want to know the love of Christ themselves? And ultimately, was I glorifying God enough in my writing?
The next day--
While I was folding Mt. Laundry I was listening to a Joyce Meyer sermon in an attempt to get some positive juices flowing. Of course, what she was talking about totally applied to all the questioning I was doing the night before (God is so good at that). Her sermon was about addictive attitudes and how we all have them. Addiction doesn’t necessarily mean we’re addicted to junk food, drugs, alcohol, or sex for example. Rather, it’s our emotional attitudes towards our circumstances such as, being controlling or in my case mental hindrances like: self-doubt and poor stress-management. What stuck out the most to me though, was not the basis of her sermon (addictive attitudes). Here's the aha moment, you know I always have one. It was what she said about the importance of always going back to the bible to study it on your own. Sermons, devotionals, Christian blogs, and other inspirational resources are great, but what’s more important is how the word of God speaks to you personally and directly.
After the sermon ended I was moved to study the bible for a bit. Since I was still folding laundry I opened up the bible app on my phone and put the book of Matthew in audio mode. I had enough laundry that I got through eight chapters by the time I got it all hung, folded, and put away. The Lord revealed a lot of truths to me in those eight chapters but what I felt he was saying specifically to me in regards to all of my questioning was this:
I am the salt and light. For both the lost and the found whose hindrances keep them from progress. Whether you, as a reader, know him or not, it is my calling to speak of his great love even in the midst of my weaknesses with hopes that you too will know him and/or know him deeper.
Stop worrying. Simple as that. Live each moment for itself. Tomorrow is not promised and yesterday is past. How you live in THIS moment sets you up for the next, but the next is not for us to worry about. What will your present approach to the next moment be? Are your thoughts about it going to be worrisome and anxious? Are you hopeFULL or hopeLESS? I choose hopeful. How about you?
Ask and you shall receive. When you pray and ask for things that are in alignment with the will of God, he will surely deliver. So whether it's your health, finances, children, or the size of your blog audience that you're worried about… hold fast to the promise that the lord will answer your prayers and wait patiently on his timing. Also, keeping in mind during the waiting, that his answer to your requests may not be exactly what you hoped for but his way will always be better!
Be more than a hearer, be a doer. Don’t just hear the word but study it and then put it into practice and build a foundation on it. Whatever the Lord says, live by it. Be obedient and have fearless faith in whatever you're called to, even if it's hard or doesn't make sense in that moment. Everything that we stand for should be built on biblical truth in some way or another. With that, we can be sure that the foundation of whatever we're building, whether it's a marriage, a business, or a blog; it will be solid.
Ultimately, the Lord reminded me that I need to stop going back and forth with myself and be obedient to the task that I already know he has called me to. He has always given me a heart for the lost as well as the found who frequently struggle to remember who they are in Christ. People who who forget their worth even though they've been a christian for years; people like me. I was reassured that being transparent about my struggles and how I overcome them is the point of the blog. The content that the Lord prompts me to share gives the oppressed something to hope in and relate to. And I believe that THAT is what makes my blog unique. It may not be like a lot of the big blogs out there but it's my mission and I know that God will bless it however he desires to. So, I will continue to be the vessel of salt and light for those who need it. I will not worry about the who, what, where, when, and why; God will do that. I will continue to pray about every struggle knowing that the Father is faithful to deliver me out of them. And last but not least, when he gives me answers and direction, I won’t just hear it, but I will do it. I know that my obedience most certainly reflects Christ and that without a doubt gives glory to the Father.
The word says that Christ's power is made perfect in weakness! So whenever you find yourself being down and out about your weaknesses, lift your chin up! That's God making a way for the power of Jesus!
Be encouraged and empowered! Jesus is our strength!
Love & Blessings!